Deep Desires and Altered States

Remember when we were high?

And you looked me in the eye

The tension could be cut with a knife

But the words could never be said

Should we? You asked

We can't. You answered

You wanted to, I felt.

Arousal was there, I could sense it.

You were signaling to me with actions, the opposite of your words.

We can.

But I knew we shouldn't.

The drugs gave you the courage you lacked while sober

But when you were, it was over

Back to best friends and nothing more.

When you'd sleep over you'd hold me, but then roll away in the morning

Something more to us, but you could never

Admit to yourself you wanted it

Admit to me I was special

You nearly did when we were high

But you could not fully reject the lie

And the truth is, I'm glad you didn't

Cause afterwards I would be blamed

For seducing you when really

You were truly the one

To be freed by drugs.

04/21/21