Call Me...

Is it okay for me to love you?

Does it offend?

Maybe if I gave myself to you it would make amends

Take you up to the water, down to the beach,

What's the best approach?

Should I make a joke?

Can I ask you

To cream in my peach

Would you catch my drift

(I'm not talking about dessert)

I'm sure you can take a hint

If you ever desert me

and end it all

I don't think life would be worth living at all

You better not tell me about your wife on a call

Not to be a psycho but you're the love of my life

It's a vicious cycle

I'm horny, I'm lonely, I love you

I trust you with parts of me that even the mirror doesn't see

I can't believe I feel this way, it's embarrassing

I get in my head, my head gets in the way, I want to give you head, and misbehave

You see I crave you, I wanna stalk you, I wanna eat every single piece of you

I prey on you, like an animal

When I see you I turn into a cannibal,

let me take a bite of you dear

I pray that you'll accept me, but still the fear gets the best of me

I extend my feeling to you like a balcony, walk across it, surprise me in the night

Sneak into my bed and hold me tight

Is this Love by the way? Or am I delusional

Or is it blood leaving my brain, the usual

I don't need marriage I can settle for casual

But if you were to break it off, you may as well murder me, either way, I'd be your casualty

Unintentional, 3rd degree, still to have had you would be worth it, easily.

I wanna swim in your sheets no need for shorts, but every time I think to tell you, I abort. Once I say it the shell is cracked, and every egg knows there's no going back.

I stare at you, the soles of your feet,

your toes, up your legs, your crotch, and your cheeks,

back to the front, your abs, chest, collarbone,

when I'm with you it feels like home

shoulders, arms, palms, fingers,

The smell of you lingers

spine, neck, head,

Without you, I'd rather be dead

chin, face, lips,

Soft skin I can kiss

eyes, nose and hair.

I care for you, deep in my soul, every moment we meet, I know you're the man my heart chose, cause it begs for you, I wanna lose the clothes, my eyes leak

but I put up a front, I'll recover and get used to being alone,

Even if it's colder, the memory of you warms me, it calms me, I couldn't make you mine, but I still feel you in my bed, perhaps how I feel is better left unsaid.

Where have you been? Can I get another taste? Feel your hips grind at my waist? Lies. that keep me awake. Deep down I know, but the pain I cannot bear, so I turn to you in my despair. It kills me that you don't seem to care. I'm in front of the fireplace, crying there. Till the warmth dies down, lying there. Tears dried on my face, my life without you is a waste.

10/22/20